Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Do I deserve God?

No I really do not.

Some days I just feel as if there is no way in the world that I can honestly deserve the love God has given me, and that's because I cant.. but for some reason He loves me anyway... Which I personally do not understand.

I am a royal mess, I do everything I shouldn't, I don't always know what to do or say.. but He loves me anyways...

In my eyes I am completely unlovable, which seems to prove itself true (mostly in a romantic sense but other places as well) who would want me? If I am not good enough for man how, can I ever think I am good enough for God? I just don't understand.

My hair is always a mess, I have trouble saying what i mean and saying what I want to say. Some days I feel completely lost to the world. Life tends to pass by me without notice. I am a little bit strange, or a lot bit. I wear my heart on my sleeve, then get hurt wonder why, and once again am a mess...

But He LOVES me....

How? Why does he love me? He has to see something in my that i don't see and that others don't as well.... i just don't get it.. at all...

i don't know maybe its just the mood I am in, where i see myself as unlovable therefore it only makes sense God doesn't love me too...

thoughts for the day....

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